This is the life of Mr. Jesus Lopez-Ledesma. I plan to write it by starting in the future and working my way back to where I was born.
In the year 2007 I confronted the worst days of my life to date. The whole month of February I was sick with body temperature and a mouth infection that made it painful to drink or eat. January was nothing but panic and struggling to make ends meat. In March, the bottom completely fell out of the business I am in and I am now working everyday of the month. Somewhere in march I decided I was not going to die as a cab driver. Therefore, I decided to go back to school and get an education degree so I could get a teaching degree. It took the college being harassed by me by calling deans of this and deans of that to get a degree plan.
The bigger problem is I am going to have to pay for it but the business is dying. I don’t mind working but everyday the business gets bad. It makes me feel like I am finally getting a handle on my life and it all is falling apart.
I returned to the taxi in April of 2005 after having worked as a social worker for a miserable organization; Region 19. The big problem was that the people who where already there had such a mess of the records they were not willing to help me understand job responsibilities. However, towards the end people were coming up to me and telling that the deadline to turn over certain reports was tomorrow and that was first I was hearing about it.
However, what really bugged me about this place was that one day the employees were required to spend day at a all day seminar. The speaker was billed as an inspirational speaker. However, in one day this so called inspirational speaker stepped on every belief I have. He joked on stage about hitting women and children, made fun of the white soundman, and ridiculed Christianity. He actually said that you would have to be a Christian to go to a male strip club so you could say “ Oh My God”. I honestly asked myself if this was the people I wanted to be associated with.
Four months later I answered the question. The answer was no. Therefore, left them and returned to the taxi. I thought I could get another job soon. That didn’t happen. Hence I put my head down and pushed forward like a bull.
Now it is 2 years later and I feel I have accomplished nothing. In addition, my real grip is with God. I don’t think any one has lived that has been so interfered with like mine. That incident with the university I had to get political with to get a degree plan is the standard of my life.
I heard a minister once say that the devil can only be in one place at a time and his demons can only temp you. Therefore it is my conclusion that the entities of heaven are plaguing my life.
There was a time in life that I was motivated to work for a simple life of personal achievements. Now, I just want nothing. I’d rather be dead then have to face this tragic life.